feral but sober

Truth, Trauma, and Triumph1- Claws Out Part 5audiochannel

This time, I’m joined by the fierce and fearless Rachel—an unapologetic truth-teller with a story that cuts deep and heals loud. Together, we dive headfirst into the vault for a game of radical honesty, emotional grit, and community-powered chaos.
We cracked open the question vault and let the audience choose our fate, one number at a time. Each prompt pulled was a wild card: some hit like gut punches, some healed like gospel, and some made us laugh when we weren’t supposed to.
Host and guest go head-to-head answering questions that dig into survival, identity, recovery, rebellion, and everything in between. No scripts. No filters. Just truth, trauma, or triumph—whichever shows up first.
💥 Expect:
•  Unapologetic storytelling
•  Emotional chaos with consent
•  Audience-powered prompts
•  Laughter, grit, and maybe a few tears
•  A community that listens without judgment
This is your invitation to play along, speak up, or just sit back and witness what happens when the claws come out and the masks come off

“No Script, Just Truth”-claws out part4audiochannel

When a last-minute cancellation threatened Claws Out Part 4, Debra stepped in—and what followed was one of the most unfiltered, soul-baring conversations yet. In this impromptu stream, Leanna and Debra ditch the script and dive deep into their lived experiences with addiction, recovery, and the systems that shaped their journeys.
They unpack the stigma around CPS, challenging the myth that child protection is about tearing families apart. Instead, they speak to the reality: sometimes CPS is the only safety net when addiction takes over. They share raw stories of survival, grief, and the dangerous choices that come with living the lifestyle—like driving high, a decision many have made, but one that can end in tragedy.
This episode is about accountability, compassion, and the uncomfortable truths that come with recovery. It’s a reminder that healing isn’t linear, and sometimes the most powerful insights come when the mic is live and the heart is open.

From Overdose to Outreach: The Jake Bowman Fresh Start Foundation- episode9audiochannel

In this raw and deeply personal episode, we sit down with Kim—a mother in recovery whose son Jake passed away from an overdose. When Kim couldn’t afford the funeral, the community stepped in and paid for everything. From that act of collective care, the Jake Bowman Fresh Start Foundation was born.
This isn’t just a story about grief. It’s about what happens when grief turns into grit, and loss becomes a launchpad for radical support. The foundation now helps people cover rent, buy work shoes, pay reinstatement fees, and access treatment—meeting the real, everyday costs of recovery that most systems ignore.
We talk about:
•  Jake’s life and legacy through Kim’s eyes
•  The moment the community showed up—and what it meant
•  How the foundation funds second chances
•  What recovery really costs, and why mutual aid matters
•  The emotional toll and power of turning pain into purpose
This episode is for anyone who’s ever felt unseen in their recovery, anyone who’s lost someone to addiction, and anyone who believes that showing up for each other is the most punk thing we can do.

The Dopeless Fiend & The Flip Side- episode 8audiochannel

In this unflinching episode of Feral But Sober, Leanna sits down with Josh—better known as The Dopeless Fiend—author of Flip Side different sides of the same coin. From trap house survival to spiritual awakening, Josh shares the gritty truth behind addiction, identity, and the radical act of flipping your own narrative. We dive deep into the duality of destruction and redemption, the shame that silences, and the storytelling that sets us free. With punk-infused honesty and trauma-informed insight, this conversation is a raw reminder that recovery isn’t just sobriety—it’s rebellion, rebirth, and reclaiming your voice. Topics include: •  What it means to be “dopeless” in a world built to keep you numb •  Writing through pain without losing your power •  The spiritual side of punk recovery •  How The Flip Side is helping others rewrite their own endings
the link to his book is: https://a.co/d/2MfyExE Trigger warning: This episode contains candid discussions of addiction, trauma, and recovery.

co parenting- claws out- part 3-audiochannel

🎙️ Claws Out Part 3: Co-Parenting (with Brittany)
“I overdosed in front of my son—and somehow, that’s what saved me.”
In this unflinching episode, Brittany claws her way through the chaos of addiction, motherhood, and survival. Prescribed benzos for anxiety and depression, her spiral began quietly—until it exploded. After a 90mg overdose in front of her child, seizures from withdrawal landed her in the ER. Benzo withdrawal is one of the few that can kill you. But Brittany lived. And that’s where her story begins.
She opens up about:
•  💔 Navigating co-parenting with a narcissistic ex she can’t even speak to directly
•  🧠 Mental health battles, trauma, and the moment God found her in a facility
•  🏚️ Losing housing, leaving her kids behind, and surviving on weekend visits
•  🗣️ The heartbreak of being shut out of decisions about her children
•  😡 The rage of hearing her ex speak badly about her in front of their kids
•  💪 The daily fight to accept what she can’t change—and reclaim what she can
This episode is not about perfection. It’s about persistence. Brittany’s story is a testament to the brutal beauty of recovery, the grief of fractured motherhood, and the power of naming your truth—even when it hurts.
Trigger warning: addiction, overdose, emotional abuse, custody trauma.

Addiction Ain’t a Moral Failing: The Science Behind the Struggle- Episode 7- audio edition

In this raw and radically honest episode of Feral But Sober, we rip the shame veil off addiction and dig into the science that proves it’s not about weakness—it’s about wiring. From Dr. Benjamin Rush’s 1700s declaration that addiction is a disease, to modern neuroscience, trauma theory, and social risk stacking, we explore how biology, psychology, and environment collide to shape substance use. We break down the myths, spotlight the systemic setups, and name the real culprits—poverty, trauma, isolation, and inherited vulnerability. Whether you’re in recovery, supporting someone who is, or just tired of the stigma, this episode arms you with facts, fire, and fierce compassion. Featuring: •  The roots of the disease model •  Brain chemistry and dopamine hijacking •  Trauma-informed risk factors •  Why “willpower” is the wrong conversation This one’s for the rebels, the researchers, and the radically curious. Tune in, get loud, and let’s rewrite the narrative.
this is the link to the first presentation: https://prezi.com/view/b6zdq85O6eZdLWuCdfJK/?referral_token=NMjzg9lnB3FN
and here is the second Addiction as a disease model ^M its genetic.pptx

Parenting: Claws out part 2-audio only

“Parenting in the Ashes: Nichole’s Fight to Reconnect”
In this unflinching episode of Claws Out Confessions, we sit down with Nichole—a mother, survivor, and warrior—whose story begins in a home shaped by addiction and spirals into her own battle with substance use, young pregnancy, and the devastating loss of her children to CPS.
Nichole opens up about:
•  Growing up with addicted parents and repeating cycles she swore she'd escape
•  Falling into addiction after a young pregnancy and losing custody of all her kids
•  The painful distance from her oldest daughter, who lived with her father while the others entered state care
•  The crushing weight of self-hatred and addiction that kept her from reaching out—even when she had access
•  And finally, after 15 years of struggle, the slow, sacred work of rebuilding trust with her daughter and bonding with her two grandsons
This episode is a testament to the long road back—a raw look at parenting through addiction, the systems that separate families, and the radical hope of reconnection. Nichole’s voice is fierce, vulnerable, and full of truth. If you’ve ever wondered what healing looks like when the damage runs deep, this one’s for you.
🖤 Claws out. Hearts open. The fight to parent doesn’t end when the system says it does.

Recovery Journey, Alter Ego Confession, Snapped and Switched-- Episode 1 - Audio Only

🎧 Episode 1 — “Recovery Journey & Alter Ego Confessions”We’re kicking off Feral But Sober with three fierce voices who’ve lived through the chaos, found clarity, and now light the way for others. This episode is packed with grit, wisdom, and unapologetic truth.🧨 Segment 1: Recovery JourneyFeaturing Rachel Haney, CDCA at BrightView Treatment Center with 9 years clean, this segment dives into the emotional labor of healing. Rachel opens up about the power of boundaries—how hard they are to set, but how vital they are for protecting your peace. She shares what she’d tell her younger self if she could go back, and breaks down the path she took to become a Certified Chemical Dependency Counselor Assistant in Ohio, proving that lived experience can evolve into professional impact.👁️‍🗨️ Segment 2: Alter Ego ConfessionsAmanda Cantrell steps into the mic with a story that’s part survival, part transformation. After graduating multiple treatment centers, Amanda had the tools—but struggled to apply them until she entered the Grant County SAP program. There, she found her footing and became a Peer Mentor, guiding others through the same fire. In this brutally honest segment, Amanda shares how ripping off the wrong people led to her being kidnapped—a moment that forced her to confront everything she thought she knew about trust, danger, and redemption.⚡ Segment 3: Snapped and SwitchedTracy Terry brings the heat in this final segment, telling the story of the moment everything snapped—and she knew it was time to switch up her life. After graduating from The Hope Center, Tracy chose to stay on as a volunteer Peer Mentor, helping others begin their own recovery journeys. Her story is a testament to the power of choice, community, and showing up even when it’s hard.💥 These women don’t just share stories—they share tools, truths, and transformation. From boundaries to betrayal, from relapse to redemption, this episode is a full-body experience. They offer their opinions, wisdom, resources, and hearts—and they don’t hold back.

Episode 6- Pathways-audio only

Meet James a Recovery Dharma practicer here to tell about himself and pathway. He gets into meditation, The Dharma Book and The Budda. He tells how his pathway has helped shape his recovery including contributing to his spiritual awakening! 

episode 5 me- audio only

episode 5 is a small mini episode about me, and briefly telling my life and my story.